Current mood:

thoughtful

mazlov's triangle
This week in psych we learned about Mazlov's Triangle-- the idea being that a human being needs to get the basics first: food, and a roof over there head before they can even start to think about those other more non-specific things like love, frienship, and spirituality. In Mazlov's Triangle the thing you really want to reach is self-actualization, that's a place that is at pure peace in your mind and in your deeds, where you are YOU through and through. I tend to agree with this triangle. There's a couple of homeless looking dudes who hang out outside the Safeway in town, and sometimes if you go there on like a wrong night they'll be out there cussing and screaming at eachother. Well, it looks to me like they're hungry. How can they be all friendly and neighborly when they don't have anything to eat? Or a place to live!

I think I'm sort of in the middle of the triangle, like i'm always looking for peace of mind, that self-actualization thing, but I'm never quite there except for maybe five or ten minutes at a time. Or hell, maybe I'm not there at all and there's a place i don't even know anything about that is beautiful and is miles of smiles... I'd like to make it my goal to reach that self actualized place though, see it for myself. In Zen Buddism you start by getting rid of all your earthly goods and unecessary ties.. Well i'm on the road to that with Ryan always stealing my cds and James not talking to me I guess.

I knew this kid in highschool who I always wanted to know better, who seemed to get that place kind of early, he was sort of a loner and prone to just sort of standing back, but not in a weird way, sort of in a comfortable way, like it made him see things better. Then one summer he took a trip by himself into the woods, for the whole summer. There's a trail back there you can take, where you never have to get off for anything civilized, well, there are maybe a few food and materials stores along the way to store up on food, but for the most part you eat practically nothing, and live on nothing, and see no one... and just hike up through that path deep in the woods with your map, and supposedly when you come out the other end you're supposed to have found something like inside yourself. Most people can't make the trip even so it's real hard. Well he went on it the year we were 17 and no one ever saw him again. But I have a feeling he's just fine. Most people thought he got eaten or something.. Who knows maybe he hiked his way to Alaska and made himself a little Eskimo family. I hope he's happy, but I sort of regret not having known him so well, the older I get the more I feel I would have had things to talk about with someone like that.

Well, if things continue to be a desert in my life, with practically no friends and no boyfriend, and no reply back from my transfer applications, maybe i'll hike that trail myself and find what it is i think I'm needing. Right now though I'm tired, and have to do some homework.

p.s. when i was looking up info on the internet about the triangle i found this site!! Crazy!