Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	Badfinger

highly sensitive people
okay so i may have talked a little bit about how I'm kind of shy, well this week it seems to have gotten a lot worse, probably because james is avoiding me and because maybe at heart i don't really want to tlak to anyone at all and would rather just hang out in the woods. james and i did speak on the phone last night, he was a little, what would you call it, monosylabbic, then his mom started screaming and he had to get off. then he didnt call me back. but anyway so i'm feeling a little out of it, and then on top of that in class we're discussing this new pschological type, sort of like chronic fatigue and all those sort of not real problems but are real problems diagnosis, this one is called just plain "Highly Sensitive People" supposedly 20% off the world falls under this category. They are called HSPs for short and the idea is that they process information differenlty than normal people, "more deeply." So that isn't always a bad thing they make good listeners, and they tend to understand feelings a lot better, information that comes into them and stuff. They have really sensitive nervous systems though because of this and just can't take too much stimulus, it drains them, so like a car honking will like, make them more crazy than other people, they get highly aroused, like off the charts by tings that might just be a nuisance to normal people. So anyway, their sensitive, right? So what? Well I'm a little worried I am one. I mean I can't stand trafic noise, or malls like I said, I get annoyed when I'm hungry, or when my pants are too tight. I think it's called a general fuss-bugget. I mean, I know I am one. It's not that that I'm worried about, but I hope that sensitivity doesn't make me shy forever, I mean, I want to become self-actualized and then do good work, talk to people, and if I'm this way I don't know if I'll have the nerve to talk to people, and just deal with stuff.

I don't know though, the problem with all these psychology classes is that whenever I read the definition of a prognosis or condition I automatically think it's something I have. Now, I do a lot of this kind of reading, and that's a lot to be thinking I've got wrong with me. You know people say shrinks are crazy, well if they are, maybe they are because there reading this stuff all the time, things that are wrong with people. I like reading it but sometimes I think I'd rather spend my time baking chocolate chip cookies or something. Maybe I can become a therapeutic chef.