Current mood:	rejected
Current music:	Pink Floyd -- Comfortably Numb

the day we met
james and i have known eachother since we were in preschool. his dad is a dj at the classic rock seattle radio station so james was always a very cool kid by osmosis. he could understand music and name the names of every great rock guitarist at the age of five. and if you saw him round his house, he'd be wearing these huge headphones, of his dads, not plugged in or anything, just with the cord tucked in his pocket. james and my love affair has been off and on basicly since he tried to carry my library books from class in the 4th grade, of course I didn't let him, but it's the thought that counts. he's always been a real feeling person too, when other dudes were out hunting cats with BB guns, james was volunteering with his older brother phil at the local homeless shelter, course phil is now in the peace corps on a tiny island called Kiribas so the brotherly influence on james is left up to his selfish consumeristic womanizing brother derek. james takes after phil more though still. james mom and dad are divorced now, four years ago, and Rob, his dad, doesn't help out really with anything anymore, so James had to turn down USC music school for now, because his mom isn't the best real estate agent, or maybe she's just selfish. james has to go to community college like me. i think ever since that happened though james personality has changed, he's not this nice loving hopeful guy anymore, there's a bitter loud streak to him now, an angry look and talk when he's thinking about himself and also with other people.

part of me thinks our break up has to do more with whats happened to his future plans than with me being a prude.

the day james and i met we were on the playground, and as tiny tots are, we didn't have the best balance yet, so we bumped heads. we cried and cried, and i remember looking at his little red face all creased and crying, once we had both calmed down we became best friends, we were five then.

tonight i stopped by the record store and i was locking up my bike when i saw this girl inside the store sort of doing a dance in front of him, like showing him some steps, i thought that was kind of weird, but then he came out from behind the counter and grabbed her by the waist and spun her around. i unhooked my bike and came back home. i don't know what to do.